Reflecting on this Good Friday, the first thing coming out very clear is that I am much much less inclined in the church related activities, but may be getting better and better as a person.
How do I know this? I don’t think it’s very difficult. You can see it yourself. You can see it on the people you interact with. I have managed to be a non controversial individual, not disliked by anyone.
Perhaps you may think why all these self praise. Well this is a critical self assessment and a statement of what I think which is important.
Then, am I just a nice person? Perhaps not ! And then being nice is not always the best. For we know, nice guys finish last.
That’s where a difficult configuration of the personality is carved out. I am sometimes jealous, but I have through some conscious efforts sort of managed to gain some antidotes. Some of the personal achievements helped.
I could not tolerate some people who I think are boring. Again some conscious efforts helped in me spending time with them.
I am empathetic. Now expanded with efforts taken to help others. There are many other good qualities which makes me happy about it.
But my visits to the church have declined considerably. But I think I may be a better person compared to many who are visibly religious.
Then what’s wrong with me? Nothing actually as I don’t consider this as a mistake. For I don’t like to be called ‘uncle’.
Anyone above the age of 19 and calling me uncle is offending me. And I don’t want to do anything with them.
After all I can make a choice…