I have been trying to counter my bad defect of a strong unwanted ego with some pitiful and sorrowful writings. But i didn’t realize that some of my true friends would get affected by that.
By the way a true friend is someone who’s concerned when you cry and not someone who’s with you to laugh with you.
So, yes; it’s ego…… which is very badly hurt with some actions. While there are mistakes, the refusal to restore is a direct attack on the ego.
Clearly, now I am not looking for mercy, and the concern expressed by my friend has simply unraveled the huge anger that I have been trying to hide. I can’t…… not anymore.
So my friend, don’t be upset. I am ok. Just that I wanted to project that I have managed to overcome my ego weakness.
So it’s ego…… my first instinct. And perhaps there’s not enough time to work on it and try to correct it……
If I can’t change it…… let me ride it……